Some days, I have a handle on my life and my goals. I know exactly what I want and how I am going to get it. Other days, I’m second guessing myself. Fretting over things out of my control. I’ll create the world’s longest ‘what if’ list. Worried about making changes and taking risks. Worried about how these changes would affect me, personally and financially. Wondering if the risk is worth it. The list goes on and on. Negative talk seeps in and before you know it, I’ve talked myself out of doing anything.
Then there are days I think, ‘if I don’t do something right now, I may not get the chance.’ And somehow, I muster the courage to do something that makes me feel like I am really stepping outside of my element. Taking a chance, but more importantly, taking a risk. It can be so scary to do something outside my comfort zone. I hate feeling uncomfortable and when you are suffering from mild depression, it seems larger than life.
Lately, I’ve found myself in need of a change. The feeling came over me like a crashing wave. I needed change and I needed it right now. I emailed a couple of friends inquiring about writing opportunities. Not necessarily a career changing move, but something to give me experience in copy writing so I can begin the shift to something I can do long term and from anywhere. Luckily, I have a friend who runs a local, neighborhood publication. She put my information out about writing. And low and behold, the kindest woman from Indiana contacted me about doing some freelance writing for her publication. We hope to breathe new life into her monthly magazine with a fresh perspective. I am excited to start this freelance opportunity this month and can’t wait to see where it takes me.
I’ve also had the dream of writing a book (or two) and I have officially started them. Before I could get real with those, I had to get my brain right. I am starting to feel more myself and ready to take on the challenge of writing. Daring myself to step far outside of my box. As Brene Brown would say, I’m working on Daring Greatly. I’m working to get there.